Letting go

Hello there,

It’s been quite a while since I have written something.

To be honest, I got very drained during the last months of 2020, and was hoping to start 2021 more in tune, except, that didn’t happen.

I feel as if I’m in a crossroads here, so many things unfolding around me. Saying: YES!!!! Than NO!!! Then repeating the same cycle.

I have been working so hard on myself, to improve, to be more authentic, to be less scared since I feel I’m losing a lot of people around me. It’s just so much.

I do feel like I want to be able to continue, that’s why I’m forcing myself to write again. I’m forcing myself to keep my well-being.

I had such a hard time in January, trying to keep up with everything, that I feel this endless spiral, just grabbing me, taking me non stop.

But, after the 28th of January I started to make changes, jump for things I wouldn’t before and it’s just hard to keep going.

I feel as if this year is about letting go of soooooo much. I can’t keep holding on to “ideas”, “things” even “people” if I want to move forward. I do believe me I do, it’s just hard to let go old habits, old secure friends, ways of connecting, it hurts. It actually hurts like bleeping hell.

I know I might be just crying over nothing if I compare my letting go, to other people’s loss. Nonetheless, we all are different, we all dwell on different things, we all have different life lessons to learn. But in that difference, is where I find the bond in all of us, we are united by this infinite love and light that holds our souls together.

But is hard, is hard to wait sooo much for something, having something in mind and then just seeing it just go away, universe saying no.

I want to break free darling sooooo much.

Best wishes.

Love, Calu R.

3 thoughts on “Letting go

  1. Oh Calu,
    I’ve been thinking about you and wondered how you were doing. I’m so glad you are back and so sorry you’ve had such a hard time. It’s been tough for so many people right now. You’re not alone and it’s so good you are reaching out in our community for support. So wild, I wrote a piece tomorrow on lettng go and letting love in for tomorrow’s post. I hope it’s helpful for you in some way. Do let me know and stay in touch.
    Lots of love and hugs.,
    ❤️

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    1. Ooooo Cindy this is so wonderful of you. Thank you so much, it has been so hard for the world, and still is hard. I sometimes wonder what other things people keep suffering, but I try to focus also on the good. 😀 like this beautiful surprise from you. Thank you soooo much means the world to me that you not only wrote to me but were wondering about me. Thanks, sometimes we feel so alone, but yeah we really never are.
      All my blessings to you 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 a lot a lot of love 🥰🥰🥰🥰 I’m gonna go right now to see your blog.
      Thanks Cindy. Big hugs 🤗 ❤ such a beautiful soul.

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      1. Oh it is my pleasure Calu!!! You’re sooooooo welcome my dear one. It is hard and we can never compare our suffering with anyone elses as it’s our suffering that matters ultimately. Yes, there are always hidden jewels everywhere to uncover and discover. You are important and I am glad you can feel the love. In distance there is no time or space. I’m glad you know I’m rooting for you. You will be of and thanks sooooo much for your love and hugs.. mmmuuuaaaah! ❤️❤️❤️💖💖💖🤗🤗🤗

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