Jump

A very special spot on lake Atitlan.

Hi everyone ☺ 😊 🤗, hope that wherever you are you feel safe and good. Happy and healthy.

Today

I

Don’t feel good.

And it’s uncomfortable, I think it truly is, nobody wishes to be sad or bad or whatever… but it’s just part of being human.

But I’m not kidding, since I woke up, I have had this urge and feeling to run. Run away as fast as I can, without looking back.

Do you ever get that feeling?

I used to feel it more often when I was a kid, and growing up as an adolescente. But now it usually comes when I’m feeling very low in my spirits. And although it doesn’t happen quite often, when it does, I feel all the pieces of my heart just fall. And the first thing I want to do is to take the car and go to nature. I can’t do that right now…. and I feel so lost and confused and I just keep looking at the picture, it’s my favorite spot on the lake. I don’t feel my heart, and I feel so much….. or maybe I feel my heart tooooooooooooo much, whatever it might be I just want to run.

Away

Far away

Just so far away….

I just

I miss soooo damn much reconnecting myself in nature, I find myself there all the time whatever happens I always have nature to cure me. Now I have to find something other…. and I don’t know what to do…. even if I know what i need to do to make this go away, because I know deep inside me the root of my sadness, I know what makes me tremble right now. But right now, all I want to do is run.

Dissappear

Can you relate?

Do you have something that comforts your heart and mind?

Please do share. I’ll appreciate it with all I have. It’s no good to want to run…. is no good to feel like you need to run.

I want to run to that swing and jump into the water and cry my eyes out underwater, wash all the tears that want to come out so badly away in the water.

And you know what, I just closed my eyes for a few minutes. I can feel my body just immerse feeling completely surrounded by water, cold water, and bubbles. The ones that come out from my mouth, my nose, and the ones surrounding my body has it crashed the water…. and as I quietly get pulled back to the surface I let all my tears go out and disappear.

I just think I need a hug.

I really hope, that if you’re reading you feel good and fine. And that your heart is okay I really do. ♡♡♡

Love, Calu R.

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