Hi there 😊,
Hope that wherever you are you feel safe and good. ♡
Today was a strange day, I woke up very late, later than usual, and I’ve been exhausted, really I feel drained. I’m guessing why.
So many things have changed in all of us this year, and it keeps happening, it continues to be that way.
Sometimes is hard to see with big bright eyes reality and know deep inside you need to move on. I really don’t feel like sharing much today.
I had an amazing week and it’s just ending so weird. I feel kind of confused, happy for many reasons but at the same time I feel really sad.
I don’t know exactly what’s going on, but in between greetings and a lot of love I have received this week, I have my heart out.
I wish I didn’t feel this way, but reality is: ups and downs. I’m trying to do the best I can to build my life. I know what I desire, want, where I see myself and what I wish to do.
Truth is that, I need to be patient. Things don’t always go as planned, and when plans involve people it gets even more difficult.
I keep falling into mistakes that I know are risks or that there’s the chance of not getting where I want. But at the same time I have a strong willing to keep going on, to fight for what I want. I wish I could open my head and see all the ideas that are blocking me from achieving my goals and just throw them away. At the same time I feel tired. I’m soooooo tired today. I barely can believe I’m keeping up writing.
I want to know what I do wrong. What is it? Why? A lot of my questions are why? How? What is it? Why not? Why this way? Why not the other? Why is this happening to me? Why?
I want to keep believing that having a good heart means something. I want to still believe that it’s okay to be sensitive is okay to give is okay to love is okay to feel. It’s okay to be me.
Love, Calu R.